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On Letting Go

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Sometimes I get in these ruts of overthinking things and maybe caring too much about stuff.  I blame my incessant need to have the future overly planned out (hello, control issues!), but at times it gets to be more than I can handle.  Ahem, an example.

This weekend we’ve got Rockies game, Avs game, Easter baking, Easter celebrating, make up and hair trials for the wedding, then come the work week, it’s two more birthday celebrations and another Rockies game.  Whoa!  Already, my brain is like “when will I have time to work out?” “when will I have time to cook so that we have stuff to bring to work for lunch?” “when will I fit in that 4 mile run I promised I’d go on in an attempt to be ready for the Bolder Boulder next month?” “and when will I even have time to go to the grocery store to buy the ingredients for the dessert I volunteered to make for Easter?!”

And I could spend a bunch of time incessantly planning out how to fit all of those things into the next few days, but… I just don’t want to.  It’s exhausting and a waste of what time I do have.  So what if I go 5 days without working out or GASP! have to buy lunch on the fly because I didn’t have time to put together a perfectly balanced meal at home.  I will live and life will go on.  Plus all those worrisome thoughts are just taking up space in my head that should only be filled with the idea of how much fun the next few days are going to be!  And sometimes, feeling out of control can be pretty freeing.

Life is about to get all kinds of busy.  Birthdays, wedding showers, bachelorette parties, actual weddings and vacations are all coming up fast and while my first instinct might be to go into a tailspin of anxiety, instead I’m going to remind myself that that’s a lot of incredibly exciting things to be busy with.  And that I might just have to give up some control in order to fully enjoy it all.

Happy Thursday, you all!

February Goals

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Last Thursday, as Joey and I dug into our lunch at Chipotle (seriously, how much better is Chipotle after a 3 week hiatus from eating it?!), I suggested we make some goals for the month.

To which Joey said, “I think I’m doing pretty good in life, so I’ll pass.” He’s no fun. But I gave him “the look” and 5 minutes later we were busy brainstorming.

I decided my goals would be to 1. Start going through my French book. I bought one a couple weeks ago so I could reacquaint myself with the language. I took 5 years of it in school, but never took it seriously and now I so wish I spoke another language. 2. Lift 2x/week. I’ve been “lifting” for years but only half heartedly and recently, only as a way to say I worked out without actually feeling like I worked out. If you’re thinking that sounds like a waste of time, it’s because it is. I’ve been taking it more seriously in the past couple of weeks and it feels really good! 3. Realize when I’m in a bad mood and make a concentrated effort to get out of it. You know, instead of just stewing in my own crankiness.

Joey had a couple solo goals too, but we’re most excited for our joint goals. 1. Cut back on the amount of time we spend on our phones. For me, being on my phone is actually an addiction. I get sucked in SO easily and so often and it’s definitely a bad habit I’m looking to break. 2. Joey does the meal planning for two weeks. I have serious control issues when it comes to the food we eat and generally anything that goes on in our kitchen. I have a mini panic attack every time I watch Joey cook. Like a “oh my god, I just cleaned that stove and now it’s covered in diced onions!!!!” panic attack. Joey on the other hand, never contributes to the meal planning and feels like he should. I think this’ll be good for both of us.  I think there was a third goal but I’m drawing a blank…

I’m usually not the type to make a list of goals, but for some reason I felt motivated to try it.  They’re not anything crazy and who knows if they’ll carry on past February.  All I know is that after our lunchtime brainstorming session, I felt seriously rejuvenated.  Or maybe that was just the Chipotle.

There’s nothing wrong with starting out the month with some good intentions, right?

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Do you ever make monthly/weekly/yearly/etc. goals?

Is there something you get controlling about?

What’s your favorite thing to get at Chipotle?