Plain and simple.
If I stay off Twitter, don’t watch the news, go out into the world and do every day life things, it is very easy to forget about any of the turmoil going on in the world and UTTER IDIOCY going on in the administration. I can go out to dinner, laugh at movies, sing at the top of my lungs, post pictures of it all and feel truly happy.
Then I get home, go on Twitter, turn on the news, forget anything good that happened earlier in the day and sink into total despair. I scream at the TV before work, rant to Joey, to my mom, to my sister and wonder how I’m supposed to get through a work day where everyone else seems unfazed. “How are they doing it?” “Am I doing it too?”
Guys, I’m totally lost with this. I don’t know how to deal or act or behave on the internet. So if you’re feeling that way too, you’re not alone! And if you’ve got it all under control, please help a girl out! In the meantime, I’ll just be over here waffling back and forth between joy and rage and wondering if I’m saying the right things at the right time in the right place.
Life as Lauren 
This is 100% how I feel. I can’t even muster the joy to recap my weekend because it both feels wrong and just off from my current mood. I know it’s okay to enjoy life AND feel this rage and concern…but I’m also super aware that my ability to “tune out” and take some “me time “is a privilege many many people do not have. They can’t tune out because they aren’t white or straight like me and the persecution follows them. UGH IT’S SO HARD. But…still…take care of yourself. Feel the joy, enjoy the good things, keep morale up so you can fight some Nazis.
I keep telling myself I still have to be a functioning human but at what point does political activism take precedence over EVERYTHING? Because I feel very near that point.