So Long, January

 

I could lie and pretend January has been a great month. And frankly, I would love to do that because admitting that it hasn’t been is hard. I had really hoped to start this new year off on a optimistic and happy note, but that didn’t exactly happen.  I have felt majorly emotional and lost. Not all the time, not even everyday, but a lot. More than I’d like to feel that way. And I wish I could pinpoint the source but I can’t and that seems to be the real problem here.

I keep having moments of clarity where I think, “what is there to be in a bad mood about?!” or “okay, enough, I’m going to be positive now” but that is so much easier said than done and 5 minutes later I’m back to being a total grouch. I know the steps I need to take to get over my bad mood, but it’s just so hard to put them into practice.

I don’t really know where to go from here, but something’s gotta give.  So I’m saying goodbye to January. I didn’t enjoy you, January. And I don’t think I will miss you any time soon.

I know that February, like January before it, is not going to be magically better. But there’s a million things I’m looking forward to in February and I think I need something to look forward. Because I’m feeling kind of stuck right now.  So here’s the February and all the happiness it has to offer!

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Do you ever find yourself in a bad mood and can’t pinpoint the reason?

What are you looking forward to most in February?

What was the highlight of your January?

8 thoughts on “So Long, January

  1. Oh gosh, I feel like there are always days/weeks/an entire month where I’m in a foul mood for no apparent reason. I think awareness that you’re not feeling like yourself is the key here. Take each day/week/month as it comes, and sometimes when the happiness just isn’t coming naturally, fake it till you make it. Ya know..put a smile on your face even if you don’t necessarily feel like smiling, and pretty soon enough, it becomes a genuine one. It’s silly, but sometimes it really does work! Here’s to a happy February! 🙂

    • I’m not glad to hear that you get in bad moods but I’m glad to hear I’m not the only one it happens to. I guess it’s part of life though. I think I could at least try the “fake it till you make it” thing.

  2. I definitely get those kind of moods. I usually find there are three driving forces that create them for me:

    1) What I eat. I notice that I get really grumpy when I eat junk food. The old adage that you are what you eat rings true for me in that instance.

    2) The weather can affect me a lot. I’ve noticed a little twinge of grumpiness this winter because, well, there really hasn’t been much of a winter for me. I’ve seen a sum total of about 3 inches of snow or so (I missed Colorado’s biggest snowmaker while I was in a snowless Chicago). I crave having four individual, definable seasons. I’m really not a fan of this unremarkable time that has been occupying Dec. through Feb. the past couple years. Too warm and too snowless for me…

    3) I get grumpy when I don’t meet personal goals. Yesterday’s run of 6.7 miles when I had intended to do 8 was a prime example of that. I apologize for being a grouch at your party. It really was an awesome party.

    • Thanks for coming! When I have any expectation of how much or how fast I will run, I’m usually in a bad mood the whole time. It’s better for me to just wing it and have fun. But if you’re training for something that probably doesn’t work 🙂

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